NSA

I can't help but feel that my ego is slightly bruised. I am not trying to be a hypocrite here, but I don't understand how someone can text me daily since meeting me, going out with me, and the day after taking me shopping...posts a new ad on Craigslist (I found this out through a friend).

Granted I guess we never made things official, which is fine, but how would you ladies feel? Meh, I don't know if I should even give a rat's ass but my health is at risk and that's rather important to me. If you do not have health, you have nothing. I guess we'll see what happens when SD#1 gets back in town; I sure do miss his company.

First Sugar Shopping Sprees!

The other day I went sugar shopping for the first time with my new gift daddy (SD#2). I met gift daddy through Craigslist! I have always been weary about meeting potentials off of there but I seemed to find a decent one, even if he isn't that rich, and when I say "that rich" I mean he's certainly not a millionaire like SD#1.

What I like about gift daddy is that w

e have some great chemistry, he's cute, and younger; so, if I ever run into anybody I know (like I actually did on the first date with him) no one would think it's odd--he's barely 10 years older than me.

On our second date he took me shop

ping. Now I've never been on a sugar shopping spree before and I'll tell you what, I failed you sugarbabies. Since I don't know his true networth, I was uncomfortable spending an obscene amount. I should have asked him what his budget was, then I think I would have felt more comfortable. I barely spent $100. Epic fail.

This shopping spree brought me back to my very first transaction with SD #1. "Transaction" sounds so cold but in reality, it pretty much i

s one. And when I mean "transaction" here, I am the one receiving thus far. Anyway, th

e first wad of cash I got spelled a whole wave of emotions--I felt bad, excited, weird, uncomfortable and even felt like shit all at the same time. I had a wonderful time

yet I am being paid. Hmm. The feeling did pass and I realized it's like getting a period for the first time. It's weird, uncomfortable, I feel like shit, but it's natural. With that said, and sorry for such a comparison but I'm on my period right now, lol, transactions are necessary and natural to such SD/SB relationships.

Anyway, gift daddy, aka SD#2, I think I will

keep around. I do enjoy his company, he of course pays for everything. Although he doesn't like to give straight cash (bummer) he certainly and blatantly said that I will be spoiled (yay!).

It's funny how things work. I was so against looking for another SD despite the fact my main one has been gone for 2 months! Holy

moly. Again, sometimes things just don't go as planned but that is not necessarily a bad thing! On a bright note with SD#1, he will be back in my city next week and he said that he owes

me shopping!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now I'm super excited to shop with SD#1 because he not only will enjoy it, but he is a millionaire. I mean shit, he likes Gucci so I certainly won't feel bad when I pick up my first pair of Jimmy Choos! :D

For Christmas I received...

Two sugardaddies! Yaya!

All I want for Christmas is to see my SugarDaddy

I decided against meeting up with Millionaire #2 again. You ladies are probably like "whhhhhat is this girl doing!". Although I know time is of the essence, I just feel too pressured meeting so many times in a short period of time for pot SDs that are from out of town. And of course I took the coward's way out and e-mailed him instead of calling him (and he called me out on this, oh well).

Maybe if I was 18 again I could move quicker like I used to. I suppose in the future I would have to find someone in my vicinity like my current one. Maybe the next step would be to freestyle it, but not until after I have tied up some threads with my current SD.

So there you have it. I probably won't be posting again until end of December or in the New Year. I wish you ladies all Happy holidays and Happy new year! And of course the best of luck with your sugar hunt.

All I want for Christmas is...my real SugarDaddy.

Millionaire #2: Sugar Rush

I went on a sugar date last night with Millionaire #2. I found out right before my date that he had contacted my friend who was on that site; nothing wrong with that, but I found out he is not as generous as my "current SD" (still in quotes as I have yet to solidify things with him). My friend said that he was rather sexual and was offering only 2K.

Although slightly put off, I went on the date. He was easy on the eyes, in his mid 40s and rather funny. He did not bring up sex and I did not bring up the allowance, although I sort of wanted to. Per my friend, she thinks he is somewhat desperate, but he said he wasn't, as I am not as well. After I said that, I realized now he certainly may not give me 4K. He did mention that "we should get me an Ipod". Hmm. He may be more of a gifts/trips daddy.

Now, I did have a pleasant time with him, dinner and drinks, but what I hate about pot SDs that do not live in my area....well things are rushed. I don't like to rush into things, although some sugar right now would be nice...hmmm

So, I guess my dilemma is...Can I be with him AND my "current SD"? Should I? Would I? Could I? Ugh. He would only want to meet 1-2 times per month, which is ok. My "current SD" gets back overseas third week of December. Now I know he trusts me and has to be still interested as I had asked for his mailing address and he gave it to me. I want to send him a small gift for Christmas. Also, I hope to see him then because it is near Christmas, but he may be with family....

Sooo what do you girls think, should I also have a second SD? My mind says yes, but could I really do it? (no pun intended lol). I would see him Sunday, and he wants me to bring him some patron, and well......take a guess, I know what he wants. Oh, and I have to call him today so I pretty much need to decided ASAP.

Man, no wonder why so many girls get burnt out fast!!!

Half Heart

I still do and want to believe...

but also trying not to be too foolish (or perhaps it's too late for that) but anyway, I am just seeing what else is out there. Casted a few new lines, so we will see. But like I said, I still have some faith in the current...

Ugh.

Hibernation Domination

Yes, yes I know you should not put all your eggs in one basket but we had a verbal agreement. My Sugardaddy recently launched several products so it is understandable why I have not seen him, since...oooh say almost two months now?

We still text although this week has been quieter than usual. I don't want to bug him, although I don't want to make him think I'm not interested. He did say it WAS okay to text him sooooooo, I guess I will shoot him a text tomorrow. Also to keep him interested, I e-mail him on occasion some of my lovely modeling photos, showing off my ASSets ;)

Anyway, I have been so busy with my life that I no longer obsess about Sugarlife, although it would be nice to seriously get the ball rolling. I have all these projects in mind but what is stopping me is the lack of sugar.

If I do not see him in December the latest, it is seriously time to move on. I just hope that I can start the new year with a big bang and lots of sugar.

Still Chillin' Part Deux

My SD ended up staying overseas for 2 weeks or so instead of his original 10 days. Hmm. And I went out a limb because I started getting extremely insecure so I had sent him a text (which turns out 2 days before he got back) asking him if he wanted some company in New York. When he got back he texted me [insart *Whew*].

Seeing as he is a wreck from all the traveling and time difference, I doubt I will be going. Honestly, that's okay because I am busy this week. I just want him to know that I am serious about this SD/SB thing. I'm not sure when he gets back but hopefully I will get to see him soon enough :)

That's all for now! Sorry, not very exciting! lol

Just chillin'

Let's see, nothing too exciting here in my sugarland. I have been helping my IRL sugarbaby friend find an SD by playing matchmaker. Hmm what else...I just sent my SD a short but sweet e-mail since I have not heard from him for over a week. I just sent him a funny Halloween joke and hoped that he was doing well. He better not forget about me!

Tick Tock

...still waiting patiently. I did have a dream last night with lots of sugary goodness so we shall see, we shall see.

I did send my SD some sexy glamor shots while he was away overseas so he wouldn't forget about me, hehe. He seemed to enjoy them. Although he was the one who said to keep an eye on my e-mail, I was to one to write him.

I figure, he's the busy one and I have nothing to lose. I've always been used to being the chasee in relationships so being 99.9% chaser in this one takes me out of my comfort zone. Now don't get me wrong, I have no problem making the first move, but being the main chaser is different. It's all good as long as I don't let my insecurities seep in.

I await patiently.




Who am I kidding!!!!!!!! This is certainly testing my patience! And I'd prefer to be chased. Haha oh well, a girl's gotta do, what a girl's gotta do!

Oh, Brother Part II

So my brother asked me last night what I have gotten so far from my sugardaddy. I told him cash ($900 to be exact but I didn't tell him that). He asked, What for? You a prostitute now?" I stuttered, "Well no...uh, my companionship, my time".

...

"Well you should get him to pay all your bills". lol ok.

I then went on to explain that the arrangement is fairly new and that we're still trying to feel each other out (no pun intended).

My brother's comment, coupled with other Sugarbaby posts on "Hookers vs. escorts vs. sugarbabies" motivated me to post my perspective on who I think I am as a sugarbaby. I am not going to try and make a broad statement or definition as I just think every situation is unique--Individuals are just that, individuals. We all want different things.

What am I looking for?

First and foremost, there has to be chemistry in such a relationship for me as I need sex too! I haven't been laid in 4 months. I am also looking to enhance my current lifestyle. I would say I am in the middle class right now. I am looking for financial assistance so I do not have to worry about surviving while trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I also have many expensive hobbies and things I'd like to try.

What am I not looking for?

A boyfriend!

With that said, do I think that I am a prostitute? No. Do you? Maybe. I just see myself as an adventurous individual who is seeking companionship and luxuries. Not just one or the other.

And if it works for now, why not? :)

Secrets, what secrets?

My brother found out today that I have a Sugardaddy. He's no dummy. He saw me get picked up by my SD's driver last week for my second date. He had asked my IRL (Sugarbaby) friend who my "rich boyfriend" was. She played dumb. Gotta love her.

Now I have nothing to hide. Why? I am a grown woman and make my own choices. What surprised me was that my brother was not phased at all. I'm actually glad he asked because now I won't have to be a ninja when I travel with my SD. My brother did ask several questions about Mr. Chemistry like how I met him, what he does and so forth. I answered truthfully and even mentioned SA.com...and then...he asked if he could get a Sugarmommy ;) Oh brother how I love you.

Now...would I openly talk about it to my parents? Hell no! They already know the other crazy shit I've done in the past and they don't need to know about this! Ironicly, my father and I have openly joked about Sugardaddies, even today. Ah...the irony. So now let me ask you ladies, how many of you have told someone about your sugarlifestyle, whether it be a best friend or family member?

Perfect 10

No I am not talking about the perfect breasts on the "World's most beautiful natural women" pornography site. Plus...I highly doubt these women are "all natural". Anyway! I finally was able to grab 5 minutes of Mr. Chemistry's time today via text messaging. As you all know, he is leaving tomorrow overseas. I thought he was leaving for 2 weeks, but luckily for me, only 10.


Mr. Chemistry said that when he gets back, the official 4K arrangement will start. I am pretty excited and it only makes sense for it to start when he is back in town. I know he will be here for a week when he gets back, and then he is gone again to somewhere else in the world. After 10 days...I think we are both going to get some sugar, if you know what I mean ;)

*Wish List*

Seeing as I love to procrastinate, I have decided to post my Wish List (an idea I stole from...College Sugarbaby?). Anyway, here they are in no particular order.

1. Adobe Photoshop CS4
2. New Mac ($1000+)
3. Laser Peels
3. New boobies....maybe. C cup. ($6000+)
4. Ikea Drawing Table ($150)
5. MAC makeup ($200)
6. Airbrush makeup equipment & class ($600) [signed up!]
7. Movado watch ($800+)
8. New cellphone ($200)
9. Ipod Touch ($300) [Seeing as all of you girls are raving about it]
10. Hire webdesigner ($?)

...and a new car! But I think I would have trouble hiding that from family; talk about big ticket items! Oh well, I can still dream!!!

Facebook

Soooo I made a Facebook today and added a bunch of you. I look forward to "meeting" you ladies and getting to know you all a little better! Anyway, that's all for today, lol. I am just waiting patiently for Mr. Chemistry to get back to me on a date/time to meet before he goes overseas for two weeks. Seeing as I squeezed his butt last time, he should be coming back for more ;)

Snagged - A - Dad!

Last night I ended my weekend with another awesome date with Mr. Chemistry. We went to his favorite restaurant; the food, drinks and ambiance was very nice.

After downing our first drinks, which happened to be fairly strong (and on an empty stomach), I was starting to feel less nervous. I tell ya, while getting ready for the date I was hella nervous. Sure, I knew I looked hot but oh my goodness am I no good at negotiations, hence why I was so nervous. I am glad Mr. Chemistry brought up SA and how it was going for me and if I had any new interesting messages. I told him I wasn't really looking, which was true. I wanted Mr. Chemistry to be my SugarDaddy.

From there, I told him I was glad he brought that up and asked if he wanted to make this arrangement offical, and what he thought about a monthly allowance. He said he was fine with a monthly allowance and asked if I had thought about it. I said I was thinking 5...He brought it down to $4000 pretty easily. Although I didn't hit my target amount, I think it is still substantial and good news is he said "4, to start". Sooooo this means it can only go up! Hopefully, haha.

We will be discussing details about the allowance and such this week before he leaves for his business trip overseas. I barely slept a wink last night as I am still trying to process all of this. Right now I am feeling a whole mix of emotions, which is hard to explain. Don't get me wrong, I am excited...But, I just hope I don't like this guy too much...



P.S. Hello Riss, my first follower!!! Haha. I hope you enjoy my blog ;)

Second Date!!!

So I have my second date with Mr. Chemistry tomorrow and I'm pretty excited. I feel like I should not be feeling this excited about a potential SugarDaddy but I am :)

Although I am excited to see him, I am nervous about bringing up the financial aspect of the arrangement but it must be done! I've lost sleep over this so tomorrow is the big day! I have a little speel that I have been practicing and I plan on getting glammed out; I will be wearing a new black little dress that I got ON SALE at G by Guess for like$12!!! Go me!!! I will then wear my blue swavorski pearl necklace that I bought ages ago and have worn only once to add some sparkle. Re: Tyra Banks show, men like SHINY! Haha, you really have to see that episode, it was pretty funny.

Anyway, my makeup will be sultry, add some fake lashes (not full ones) gloss and I'm thinking hair up. Oh I am excited! Wish me luck ladies and I will have a full update!

Sugar Baby Friends

I am lucky enough that one of my friends I met a few months ago is actually in the sugarbaby lifestyle. Although her's is a little more muted, it is nice that she understands it and is comfortable talking about it.

She is currently searching for a new SugarDaddy and may be meeting one next week; however, she seems hesitent about it, especially the sex aspect of it. I say, do what you feel comfortable with and you never know who you may have chemistry with. I can only do the deed if there is chemistry. So, we'll see if she ends up meeting him or not!

Mr. Chemistry

Now the one of the 10 who responded did not have a photo, but that's okay. I took the risk and he offered to send me one. Sugarbabies, make sure you have an alternate e-mail to protect yourself! Although I do use real photos, I do not give out my real e-mail. Some sugarbabies go as far as getting a prepaid phone. I did not but I have become rather selective with who I give my number to.

Our message exchange was short and sweet and he e-mailed me his photo and ended his last message with his number. I was pleasantly surprised and his photo was in sync with his profile. He surely seemed like a great catch! But of course, I do not want to count the chickens before the eggs were hatched but I did hope for the best.

We ended up texting almost daily and kept trying to meet up. He kept pushing the date further and further back and I almost gave up. Although sugarbabies need to be flexible, I just wasn't sure anymore until he finally invited me to his office. His invitation showed me he was serious about this and most importantly, legit.

Mr. Chemistry owned his own business and is a multimillionaire. Not only that but he was nice, outgoing and extremely funny!!! Now it was his humor that really turned me on. If a guy can't make me laugh, he's history. I met him at his office and we hit it off. We laughed a lot and told each other our stories. Before I left, I said I liked him and we should meet up again. I parted with a cash gift and an enormous smile on my face.

Knowledge is Power

As you can see, I am trying to play catchup with my posts in relation to my experiences thus far. As the title of this post says, "Knowledge is Power". It is power! My hands on experience with Mr. Diamond led me to arm myself. I started scouring the internet for all types of articles and books about the sugar lifestyle. Like many of you, I ran into JessBunny's blog which further enticed me into this lifestyle. Now if I could get $10K a month...Wow, I wouldn't know what to do with myself!

I ended up purchasing two very good books. The first was SugarDaddy Dating 101, which I bought direct from the author's site as Amazon had it for double or triple the original price! The second I bought was the book by SA.com. Both were informative but I preferred the latter of the two; SD 101 was rather funny. I would recommend both, but if you are on a budget, I would suggest getting "Seeking Arrangement" first.

Now that I armed myself with experience, blogs and books, I was ready to start hunting again. This time I decided to message some potential daddies. Of the 10 or so daddies in my area that I messaged, only one replied. Such a ratio is discerning and it's kind of like job hunting. It can become depressing but you just have to learn to carry on and persist!

Reevaluation

Back in August when I met Mr. Diamond, I thought about cooling off my search for my ultimate SugarDaddy. I just did not realize I needed to reevaluate my standards, what I want out of such an arrangement and that chemistry is extremely important.

I have various reasons for wanting a SugarDaddy:

1) I had been aimlessly dating for the past 2 years and the last guy I dated was the last straw. I was emotionally drained and could not put myself out there anymore. Sure, I was starting to get a little lonely despite being very independent, so I thought why not!

2) I recently finished school and have no idea what I want to do professionally. On the other hand, I DO have MANY things I'd like to try, complete or have done, such as modeling, cultivating my artistic abilities, plastic surgery, new car and more!

3) I have the looks and personality, so why not?


After reflecting on my experience with Mr. Diamond, I realized that chemistry is extremely important. I got along with Mr. Diamond but physically, he was far from my type. Once September hit, I took a firm grip on my standards and reinstated my search for the ultimate SugarDaddy!

Mr. Diamond

By viewing someone's profile, you are sending them a message. I don't mean a literal message, but one that invites them to view your profile.

There are several members on SA that are "Diamond Club Members", meaning that their wealth and identity are verified; you know they are the real deal. A few days after browsing some of them, I was delightfully surprised that one of them messaged me. His message was straight to the point that he would spoil me endlessly. He gave me his number.

My reply was that I wanted to talk more online before speaking on the phone. He did not reply. I sensed that he thought I was a waste of time because I would not call or give my number out. I was seriously being careful but in a way, I could understand. He wanted to cut through the bullshit.

I ended up giving him my number and he called the next day. I honestly have somewhat of a phone phobia as I loathe talking on the phone. I let it go to voice mail and later mustered up the courage to call him. Mr. Diamond was rather funny and we hit it off on the phone. Since I had plans that evening, we met up the next day.

My first mistake here was that I did not meet him at a public place. My second mistake was that I did not tell anyone what I was up to. I hate to admit it but I was being naive. Luckily no harm came my way and I definitely learned my lesson.

I met with Mr. Diamond who was traveling here on business. He was very straightforward, even when we were on the phone. He brought up the financial aspect of the arrangement and his expectations; however, I was not expecting him to try and sleep with me right then and there! Long story short, I was not attracted to him, his expectation of wanting sex right off the bat was a put off (hire an escort will ya!) and well, I learned A LOT from this meeting and it was time to reevaluate.

Online Dating

I have never had the urge to join an online dating site, with the exception to one where I joined when I was 18. It was an online dating site for those who were in the alternative culture, aka "goths", "punks" and "vampires". Nothing came of it and it was kind of silly looking back, at least my photos were kind of silly.

I ended up joining two sites, SD and SA.com. I joined SD first and found them to be a rip off. Seriously, paying just to read your messages? I guess that is a popular scheme though because from reading other blogs, e-harmony and match.com seem to do the same. I purchased a membership and had my inbox fill up. I won't lie, it was quite the ego boost.

I chatted with a few and even exchanged a few photos but nothing came out of SD. The majority of these men were looking for a traditional relationship and bashed "gold diggers". I mean, are you serious? You do realize that this website is called "Sugardaddie" after all. After 2 weeks, I closed my account and opened one with SA.

SA was a lot more promising and cheaper! It also had a lot more functions and many were looking for an arrangement. I still could not fathom those who were looking for a traditional relationship on such a site; you men should be on match.com!!!

Although my inbox was filling up at a steady pace, not all messages were of quality. I had those who were straight up crude, brash and trashy; however, there were also a handful of decent ones. Some straight up gave me their phone numbers which I though was hastey. I realized later that they are the serious ones who cut through the bullshit. That's what I need.

There is always some truth to any joke

I have always joked around about having and getting a SugarDaddy, but I never took it seriously until about a month and a half ago.

You see, I am an "IT" Girl. See: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/It_girl to educate yourself if you don't know what an It Girl is already. Anyway, I have had things bought for me in my past from boys in high school but I never took it seriously. I usually just brushed them off. They were guys who were usually desperate and perhaps even had a screw loose (But then again, who doesn't?).

I am at a point in my life where I am transitioning into a professional, however, I still don't know what I want to do when I grow up. Perhaps this SugarDaddy hunt is a mere distraction from reality, but does it really matter? We all create our own little fantasies from time to time, especially when life gets tough. I've always been unconventional in my ways and love pushing the envelope. Welcome to my Sugar journey and I hope you are along for the ride, because I sure am.