Accountability

This is my accountability post for me. I did a lot of thinking and realized that I need to bring up the allowance talk again next time I meet SD#1. I have a few points that I want to make to him and I am sure he will be fine with it. He said he was fine with starting at 4K a couple months ago so I don't see why anything should change; and if something did, it was that we have more trust in one another. I just need to gain the confidence, and practice my speaking points. Although e-mail would be easier to do, I don't think it would have as much credibility. With that said, this is my accountability post and I will follow through! No more excuses, I have goals to achieve.

Date with SD#1

I finally went on a date with SD#1 after not seeing him for over 2 months!!! Although there were times where I was giving up hope, I never lost faith in him. Why? Well, for starters, one of his best qualities is his consistency. He has always been consistent with his behavior, e.g. texting me, replying to my texts, etc. Past behavior is always indicative of future behavior.

Yes, I had been lightly shopping on the side for a second SD but I have been having a hard time with it. I have no problem gathering potentials, but SD#1 has certainly set the bar high: SD#1 was generous the first time we met, and to this day, he was the only one who gave me something first meeting. Secondly, he is a millionaire. He was the second millionaire I met and he overshadowed the first one because well, the first one wanted to bag me right there and then. Apparently that dude was used to desperate babies. Lastly and most importantly, chemistry! We laugh a lot together and I can poke fun at him. I also find him attractive :) Anyway, I am actually very happy with him except for the fact we are still kind of at "Pay for Play". Sigh. Will expand on it later.

Anyway, his driver picks me up at my house and I am shuttled to SD#1's house. This is my second time being there and he has a lovely place. Candles were lit. I scoped out his backyard for the first time and he has a nice pool and hot tub. We were running late and he said we were meeting some friends for dinner. WHAT!!!???? Now I wasn't upset because we weren't going to have some one on one time, but friends? I was nervous! Yes, I don't care what people think and he said the guy friends didn't care either...So I was a little worried about the women. You know how women can be! Haha.

We switch to his Rolls Royce and head over to the restaurant. I love riding in his car...It's gorgeous. He's so desensitized about his car that he always keeps saying, "It's just a car." I always catch people drooling over it. I can understand what he means...yes it's just a car...but come'on!!! It's hot. During our car ride, he was actually the one who brought up the women and how we should make up a story of how we met. Well, luckily for us, they never asked, haha. Our excuse was pretty simple--We met at a party.

So we are fashionably late and we meet his friends at the bar. Like I said, I was super nervous. I'm sure I hid it well as I am usually very confident (looking) on the outside. We get seated and the drinks start flowing before the sushi. I pretty much drank on an empty stomach but hold my liquor well. Thank god for alcohol though!!! It sure gets everyone talking, relaxed and having fun. I think I had a good rapport with his friends, and most importantly the women, ha. We all had a good time and we all got fairly intoxicated :D

We drank and ate a lot and had a grand ol' time. SD#1 told me he stopped looking on SA because he said that he found someone pretty cool to hang with! I was extremely happy to hear this and had a huge grin on my face. Since we were having a great time and this was the first time in over two months he had time to go out and have fun, I did not even want to think about bringing up the allowance. I enjoyed my time with him and his friends, and do not take his generosity for granted. He kept asking me about my plans for school and I sense that he will be becoming more generous in the near future. Ideally, I would still love to have a 4K arrangement. I guess I will play it by ear and see if or when I will be able to bring it up.

I did try to seduce him so it's not like I'm not doing my part :) Unfortunately, my ego was a little hurt as it didn't work out. lol oh well, I think we both got a little too intoxicated anyway. Overall, I had a lovely time, he enjoyed the gift I gave him, and I became 5 Benjamin's richer that night. I hope to see him soon. I made sure I busted his balls on him seeing me more. He agreed and also said he owes me shopping (Jimmy Choos!!!). I reminded him that he also owes me a trip to New York too!

Sugar Dates

Well I let Gift Daddy know that I didn't think we were a good match. He was very cool and sweet about it. Overall, he really is a nice guy and even cute, but not what I was looking for. Plus, I could see myself getting too attached.

Moving on, I got in touch with the Pot. SD I met on Tuesday and we have tentative plans to meet again next week. I will call him Mr. Sexy! I found him on Craigslist, again, which I thought I'd never do - but hey - don't knock it 'til you try it! I will bring up allowance talk as he's mentioned "physical pleasure". I do think I intimidate him - hey - whatever I can use to my advantage ;)

Last but not least, I am seeing SD#1 this weekend for sushi (and lots of sake of course :) so I am pretty excited. No shopping, which is a bummer; however, he is my Cash Daddy! Can't go wrong with cash! Hopefully he is feeling extra generous as I have not seen him in 2 months! Plus, I got him a gift that I know he'll love (or at least laugh!). Priceless.

AXED

...down to 2 in the running.

Hopefully have some good news shortly.

Pffffft

I don't know if I am making that sound because of who I am, what I do, my commitmentphobia....Speaking of which...This is one of the reasons that lured me into this lifestyle: I can have a "part-time" boyfriend that will spoil me and I do not have to pay for any of it! Ha, because I certainly can't afford much time or money :/ However! I am working towards my career goals at the moment and I won't lie, it has certainly been taking a lot out of me--physically, mentally and emotionally. I guess this was more of a vent....HOWEVER! I do have some more sugar news, as follows:

1) SD#1 said we will be getting together this weekend. SHOPPING!?

2) Meeting Pot. SD tomorrow

3) Date with a cute, successful man this week

4) Responded to Gift Daddy. To be honest, I did not bring up exclusivity & am being a hypocrite. Yep. Go me. We'll see how things go. . .

Life...

likes to throw you curveballs. I am keeping this short and vague. Due to some changes in my personal life, my sugarlife will have to come to a premature end if things do not work out with SD#1 & I. Although somewhat disappointing, this is reality and I really need to focus on the bigger picture. Hello 2010, I shall embrace you with open arms!

NSA

I can't help but feel that my ego is slightly bruised. I am not trying to be a hypocrite here, but I don't understand how someone can text me daily since meeting me, going out with me, and the day after taking me shopping...posts a new ad on Craigslist (I found this out through a friend).

Granted I guess we never made things official, which is fine, but how would you ladies feel? Meh, I don't know if I should even give a rat's ass but my health is at risk and that's rather important to me. If you do not have health, you have nothing. I guess we'll see what happens when SD#1 gets back in town; I sure do miss his company.